Leadership

It's not easy.  Maybe for some people it comes naturally, but I'm afraid I'm not one of those people.  I took on a leadership roll for my dear friend's wedding and I'm pretty heartbroken about the outcome.  It started out as a creative spark that lead me to volunteer to design and produce her wedding favors and turned into managing the entire decorating process of the wedding reception.  I'm glad I could help and was very grateful for all of her friends that volunteered to help me too, i know i couldn't have done it alone.  But... I was still in charge and I let people down. Specifically her friend who offered to lend out her daughters wedding decorations. At the last minute we decided to use some fabric squares that she provided and her only stipulation was that she would need them back. Well... I am and afraid I will always be a girl who can get overwhelmed by my emotions. It was an emotional day for me. I found so much Hope in that day and witnessing what I believe was God's Love shining down on two people who know that putting God first is of vital importance. All of my emotional release left me pretty exhausted and out of it that by clean-up time I wasn't all there and just wanted to get the job done.  I know I gave away several of the squares to Alyssa and her friend, but i still don't think that accounts for all of them.  It's hard not to feel like the whole thing was a failure... and maybe that sounds a little dramatic, but it's just a prime example of a Good leader versus... well... me. I hope it's a lesson I learn from... make a list, write it down, DO something to help prevent these kind of mistakes.  arg.